The "No-Life" Klutz

Being home, alone, on a Saturday night drives me to do senseless things like taking personality tests, as evidenced by the prior 3 entries. Was supposed to have dinner with friends but it was cancelled at the very last minute. Just when I was on my way to catch the train. With the realisation of how uneventful my Saturday will be, I decided to pamper myself a little with sushi.

I declare that I've been wasting my youth for the past one month. Being unemployed, living away uneventful days, etc. I'm just having so much thoughts regarding the job I want that I don't know where to move from here. I'm greedy. I've got so many wants for my job search that they conflict. And since I still don't know what I'll like to do, there's reluctance in sending out that resume. Probably, I'm stalling for time. Probably, subconsciously I've got that job in mind. Probably.. Probably Probably.. ain't bringing me anywhere... what can I say.. a breakdown in my life.

Maybe the days I'd spent weren't that unconstructive. At least I'm staying home and letting my presence be felt by my grandma. Don't think I'll be spending much time with her once I start work. And maybe it's a chance for me to recharge? haha. Maybe this whole paragraph doesn't seem credible; But I'd rather not regret certain things. Life is fragile and transient.

It's hard to comprehend myself at times. I'm a contradiction. Don't ask why... I won't be able to put it to words. I don't know where to start.