Me, Myself and I

What a self-centred title: Me, Myself and I. Heh. But it's a fact.. this entry's gonna be about me.

Frankly, my career is not a smooth sailing one. There was a variant of emotions. Rejections and "No" are part and parcel of life. That I can still acknowledge. But what diss me are times when people say one thing and do the other thus taking you on a ride & people who do not respect your time, especially when I've put my trust in their words. I'm still trying to accept these. That's why I tell some that this career really develops one's personality and attitude. It's not an easy career but it's something I want. I've seen the value in it and there are quite a number of people who've moved me. It's those who've touched me, my commitment when I speak to them and the value of the things I see myself doing that I've gotta learn not to be affected by those ugly people... and some whom I call losers. They're losers coz' they don't dare to face up to themselves. They are aware that they're in sh** but they refuse to see that and wanna continue their destructive behavior. Well, then again what can I do with these people? It's their life, their choice. If I let each of these people affect me... guess my heart will be pulverised sometime down the road. And since I see the value in what I do... I'll continue doing it that's why I've refered to my work as my career in this entry... and not my job. It's hard especially when external factors set in.. hence, readings, focus meditation must be done.. not to mention non-constructive stuff like verbal outburst (which is what I'm doing now. hehe. I'm still human. There's that machinery in me. hehe.)

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------Read my previous posts when I went to the US. One sentence really had a nice ring...
"Spent over 200 USD on shopping. It felt good. Coz' I worked for the money and I spent it." I also mentioned that I left for the States with a myriad of emotions. Well, guess as long as I've the fire of hope, faith, courage and tolerance... and the desire, all walls will crumble. For all I know, I may just be "three feet away from gold" from Napoleon Hill. My "gold" is to get people to acknowledge what I do. With this, most liabilities should fall in place I suppose.

Suddenly recalled a paragraph I read in some book. It says that the majority's goal is to strike it rich. However, it's not an easy when a purpose is not be present. Purpose and goal is different. To get the goal, the purpose must be met. i.e. The purpose may be to provide people with top notch hospitality service and with that purpose in mind and actions that are in tune with that purpose, the money will just roll in, hence the goal will be met.

Yeah yeah.. my thoughts are random.