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My life is in a mess. My thoughts are in a mess. I need a mental, emotional and physical revamp.

Really, I need to be aiming for Breakthroughs. It's not just about knowing what I already know, not about knowing what I know I don't know... IT's about knowing what I didn't know I didn't know. Confusing?

I have to create possibilities for myself, find out what is missing and make it present to make a difference in my life.

I shalt not be judgemental. I shalt not let the 'small voice' within me influence me negatively. I shall be open-minded (not to act open-minded but BE open-minded).

I have to make a choice. The choice often lies with one as to whether one would be happy. I would think that one would be happy when his wants materialize... and often the key to making it happen lies in one's hands... one has to choose to do it.

I should learn to put my PAST into my past folder and look ahead. The FUTURE should hold nothing for me for it may lead to me forming obstacles for myself. No judgements, no fear of past mistakes, no negative expectations. Things have happened...it's a fact. Should I allow those terrible incidences sink me? I should only keep those valuable memories and discard the negating ones. My PRESENT should be my future expectations, i.e. what possibilities I want to create for myself.

That's why I'm going to the States and signed up for the thing alone. I'm not gonna think about how I'm gonna survive there without any accompanying friends.. it'll only create unfounded fears. I'll create the possibility of making new friends. Create the possibilities having positive incidences and a wonderful time there. Some would ask : "how would this thing benefit you? dun tell me u're not independent?" Well, I am independent, many would say they are... but being independent different is from acting independent. Even if people may not see the difference but at least (I hope) I'll feel the difference in me and be authentic with myself.

FUTURE is to BE.
PRESENT is to DO.
PAST is to HAVE.

As Winston Churchill has said : "Success is overcoming failure and failure with enthusiasm".

If I'm gonna give up on myself, no one else can help me. Loved ones and kind souls may give me encouragement but at the end of the day, it's all about whether I'm willing to open my mind be receptive to their warm words and digest them well.

I'm really quite convinced of the power of the sub-conscious mind and one's will. When I told myself that I had to pass my driving test the first time round as I was undertaking the test, I did. Those words did soothe my nerves as I cleared the first obstacle.

Having said all these, it's not easy to fulfil them. To deploy them with ease, I need practice. Even the experts in these fields have had to practice.